Golf Today Home Page All the latest golf news Coverage of all the worlds major tours For all your golfing needs Golf Course Directory Out on the course Golf related travel Whats going on
Worldwide Feature Articles

Howard almost gave in to cancer

Barclay Howard - top amateur in the 1997 Open at Troon - has admitted he contemplated suicide as he fought back from cancer.

The Scot felt so low following a bone marrow transplant last year that he wanted his sister to put him out of his misery.

But now the 46-year-old is on the mend after those dark days at Glasgow's Gartnavel Hospital and ready to play golf again.

Howard revealed: ``I said to my sister `Go and get me a jag needle; I can't handle any more'.

``I wanted out of the world. I was finished and wanted a jag to put me out of the game.''

Howard had to endure questions about when he was going to die from his six-year-old daughter Laura Jean.

But next week he wants to celebrate the first anniversary of his transplant by planning a return to winning ways on the fairways. He aims to be hitting a ball within five weeks and playing tournament golf by next year.

Howard told BBC Scotland's Friday Sportscene: ``I am not going back to being a squib ... I will give 100%.'